New Journey

Well, Today I decided I officially want to go to TTU. I want to get my bachelors. So even if I get accepted in Pellissippi's program, I will still go to TTU, unless I do not get accepted there. I applied today to the school and requested all my transcripts be sent. Now a whole bunch of hurry up and wait.

I feel like I am becoming a new person. Over the past few years I have felt like I have grown so much! But the day I told Irwin to no longer contact me, was the day I realized I am much stronger than I thought I was. I am trying to workout as much as possible. Started going to the gym with mom and Chanel. Tonight Mom and I are going to do a spin class... I am not looking forward to it, but it's another challenge I am going to try to overcome. Mom says it burns a ton of calories and people get a high from doing it. But it also will hurt your butt. I am not looking forward to that part. I am sore from the workout yesterday, so hopefully I can fight through the pain and keep going on the bike. I am so ready to get rid of this weight and become healthier. I am really trying to focus on exercise. So far I have lost 8 pounds. I keep thinking I could be losing so much more if I did weight watchers, but diets and food plans are so hard for me to stick to.. I feel restricted and I end up going off the deep end. So right now I am going to focus on exercise, then work on the eating plan. I am trying to lower my portions and instead of a cheeseburger at BK, I get a salad. I really want to go grocery shopping to get food I can eat and enjoy and is healthy for me, But I just keep thinking there is so much I need to spend my money on, like my credit card, that I let get out of control and medical bill I just got in the mail and phone bill I just got in the mail and I have to pay rent. I usually do not have many bills, but the past few months, I have had more than usual and my unemployment has been inconsistent. For example, this week I will only get 75 dollars.. Then hopefully I will get money next week after I file again, but who really knows. So I am trying to not spend much money to make sure I don't go in the negatives like I did last time this happened. I like not having to work while in school, but sometimes I think that maybe I could find a job that I could make more money then unemployment.. but that would be pretty close to impossible for a part time job. Maybe waitressing or something, but who knows. I have never done that and I would probably be horrible at it. I am hopefully going to do my taxes sometime this week so I can get some money back and I think that will help me out a lot.

Anyway, I need to get back to studying!

Sienna