Death

Tonight I received news that my really good friend Rachel's dad died in a car wreck. She has been going to UT for a special education degree in teaching. Her family lives around Nashville, so she only gets to see them on breaks as much as she can. From what she has told me, she was very close to her family. It is just devastating that her dad has died. She is such a sweet and wonderful person, why does this happen to her family?
It seems that is what we do when people die that we love. We ask why, and unfortunately no one has the answer to that. The only thing I can say is that I have faith that God has a reason.
I have been asking why a lot lately myself. My Poppa has quit smoking, quit drinking, yet he can not catch a break! I just wish he could get a second chance at life. He is only 72. I try to stay hopeful and say that he is going through this so that he can realize how precious his life is and quit the bad things, But at the same time, I do not want him to suffer anymore. I wish I knew what was going on inside his head since he can not talk or really even communicate. I wonder if he is ready to die, or if he wants to fight. I am trying my best to be optimistic, but the rest of my family is not seeming one bit optimistic about the situation. I am so happy though that I got to go down and visit him in the hospital. I do not know how well his brain was working, if he could recognize me, understand me, who knows.. But I got to tell him I love him and got to hold his hand. I just miss his great big bear hugs he always gives, while shaking us! haha. He is one of the most hard headed men I know! He is a fighter! But I would completely understand if he wanted to stop the suffering and let go. The poor guy has been through so much!

Lately with other deaths and my Poppa being sick, I think about death a lot! (like I said in my last blog). Hearing the news that my friends dad had died really shocked me and really brings perspective on how precious every second of life is. How precious every second with your friends and family is.

Cherish every breath you take and live to your full ability.

Sienna