I went to the park again today and spent about 5 hours again! I love the park! I think I am addicted! :) Today I realized, I am not changing into someone new, but I am changing into ME. I have not been truly me for a long time! It was always about making everyone else happy and acting and looking the way THEY wanted me too. I feel free. I am free to do whatever I want. I had a long talk with my best friend Carol when I got home. I figured out a lot and cleared up so much! I had been thinking that Carol wasn't wanting to be around me anymore and I have been trying to just face it. But today I talked to her about it and she felt like I was getting new friends and didn't want to be around her as much! It's funny how things work out haha. She told me today that she will miss me if I go to TTU and her and Chanel have talked about moving to Cookeville and finding a new job. She said almost everytime they get together, that is what they talk about. Carol told me that she loves having me as a friend and that she thinks I am such a wonderful and nice person. I was shocked to hear this, because I have not always thought of myself as a wonderful person. I did not know that she cherished our friendship this much! I am so happy though, cause I love to have her as a friend! I am really going to have a hard time going to TTU and being away from my friends and family and What I have always known. But I feel this is something I REALLY need to do. I want to go out and meet new people, build confidence, better myself. I really hope everyone comes and visits me though! I will definitely come home and visit as much as possible! I also found a park in Cookeville last time I went! I am very excited about that haha.
♥ Sienna
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