Poppa

Pictures of Poppa Mom sent me yesterday! He is outside for the first time in 2 months!

Living Life

I went to the park again today and spent about 5 hours again! I love the park! I think I am addicted! :) Today I realized, I am not changing into someone new, but I am changing into ME. I have not been truly me for a long time! It was always about making everyone else happy and acting and looking the way THEY wanted me too. I feel free. I am free to do whatever I want. I had a long talk with my best friend Carol when I got home. I figured out a lot and cleared up so much! I had been thinking that Carol wasn't wanting to be around me anymore and I have been trying to just face it. But today I talked to her about it and she felt like I was getting new friends and didn't want to be around her as much! It's funny how things work out haha. She told me today that she will miss me if I go to TTU and her and Chanel have talked about moving to Cookeville and finding a new job. She said almost everytime they get together, that is what they talk about. Carol told me that she loves having me as a friend and that she thinks I am such a wonderful and nice person. I was shocked to hear this, because I have not always thought of myself as a wonderful person. I did not know that she cherished our friendship this much! I am so happy though, cause I love to have her as a friend! I am really going to have a hard time going to TTU and being away from my friends and family and What I have always known. But I feel this is something I REALLY need to do. I want to go out and meet new people, build confidence, better myself. I really hope everyone comes and visits me though! I will definitely come home and visit as much as possible! I also found a park in Cookeville last time I went! I am very excited about that haha.

♥ Sienna

In Terms Of Love

So I took Lady to the park today in West Knoxville! (my favorite park). We went on a walk around the track, then I brought a blanket, a lunch, water for lady, and my Anatomy book. We laid in a shaded area and I read. It was so relaxing. This is how I should always study. Even though, I was distracted and watching people the entire time. haha. I stayed there for about 4 or 5 hours. Time was just flying by! Carol and Chanel came and sat with us for a while! Lady was so good. I took her off the leash and she did not leave my side. I had to push her away to get her to walk around. She is such a good doggy. We then got Fuji and brought it back to my house since I had to take Lady home and I don't really have the money to make too many extra trips. Then we watched White Oleander! It was a great day!

On the way to the park today, a song came on my radio from my Ipod. It's called "In Terms Of Love." I didn't even know I had the song!! It reminds me of how I feel about Irwin and that situation. Anyway, the lyrics are below!


In Terms Of Love
By: SheDaisy

Now and then I confess you cross my mind
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time
I've changed my way of thinking
I've tried hard to separate
What came too soon
From what came too late

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

Oh, in terms of love

I'm countin' on heaven to understand
I didn't mean to go and mess up all the plans
Sometimes you know where you should go
Before you know the way
I'll bother with tomorrow
Once I've made it through today

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

I don't think about black in terms of gray
Or revelations in the light of day
I don't think about cold in terms of ice
Or second chances happenin' twice

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

In terms of love
Oh, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't think about us in terms of love


♥ Sienna